Look What You've Done
By: Robyn Mullin
I’ll never forget Black Friday of 2020 when my life drastically changed. I walked out on my husband; I left behind all that I had known for nearly a decade and walked out with a laundry basket of belongings. I had no money, no job, no house, no car to call my own and no family. I had hit the bottom of the bottom; I was broken, afraid and alone.
About a month passed when my best friend helped me reach out to my family who I had broken all ties with during my marriage. I went from being alone in a hotel room to being surrounded by my family. Tom and Pat Bishop, my parents, had prayed years for the day I would return home. Deuteronomy 6:5-7 says “And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul and all your strength. These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts. Impress them on your children.” I know through years of pain and heartache my parents chose to love God with all their being. They let go and had faith that God would bring me back. Even after years away I will never forget how I was raised and the love my parents had for God. They showed us how to follow Gods path and to love him with all our hearts and souls. I am truly blessed to have an amazing set of Earthly parents and Heavenly Father all watching over me.
I started attending Dutilh again (after about 15 years away) and immediately felt the love from those who had prayed with my parents for me for all those years. God is SO good. God heard every one of their prayers. I am forever grateful to all those prayers and the church family that opened their arms when I came back. When I started attending church on a more regular basis, God started speaking to me through songs, scripture, sermons by Pastor Tom, and through the actions of those around me. I started listening to Christian music, one of my favorite artists is Tasha Layton. Her song “Look What You’ve Done” hits hard, her words portray exactly how I feel and how God has taken all my pain away. I no longer feel the emptiness inside but am now filled with the love of God and I want his light to shine through me for all to see.
The lyrics, “You spoke Your truth into the lies I let my heart believe” hit me like a ton of bricks. The first time I heard them I cried. For many years I had dealt with emotional and psychological abuse, and I believed I deserved it. I was embarrassed and ashamed of who I was. I had been so broken by the words and actions of a man, I never thought I was getting out and that no one would love me. Opening our hearts to Him can heal all wounds. Tasha’s line “Suddenly all the shame is gone, I thought I was too broken, now I see, You were breaking new ground inside of me”, God knew before he created me I would live this life and he would be the one to bring me out of it. He knew that I was strong enough to break through and become the woman he created. I have faith as small as a mustard seed and know I can do all things through Christ our Lord.
In John 8:32, Jesus says, “And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” For so many years I had lived a life with lies, now I know the truth and I have been set free. I have become a happier mom, daughter, sister and friend through my trials and God’s truth has set me free to be His.